25.12.19

Assalamualaikum blogger!!!!

Haluuuuu... Hmmm last kmk update blog tok bulan 9 kan? Huishh lamak yaaa. Bedebu blog mek haha. Al maklumkan future engineer busylah memanjang hahaha!! Chil2.. Okay mek tauk ktk org excited mok tauk kesudahan life kmk after hmmm 2 months before? Yeahhh...

Alright then. Last mek cerita is about the kekecewaan mek rasa time intern ya n with that new guy kan? Ok. That new guy right now is already become my ex!!! HUAHAHAHAHA!!! Lawak nak? Well itong2 bok around 2 months jak kot mek duak kaple. Why?? Ok... Ceritanya bermulaa... Jeng3. Lepas nya balit ke asal usul nya which is di melaka tempat nya belajar. About 2 or 3 weeks gia ka.. Ok jak mek duak. Adalah call and mostly texting laa coz nya tek busy juak dgn benda lain idk what laa. Then after ya, both of us lack of communication. Hmmm dr sia dah nampak masa depan. Ceyyy. Instinct kuat sis. Ok pasya tek, tetibalah satu hari xda ribut xda gunto yg ada time ya jerebu terok jak hahaha. Nya chat kmk and said that nya ada something mok pdh. Ok. Let go. Then he pdh yg nya rasa nya xpat continue the relationship as he said "the feeling is not there". Mek cam shockkk!!! MCM WHAATTTTT????!!!! How can he said that after many memories yg nya dah berik kat kmk?! Mek ng speechless. But actually kmk ng dah dpt agak this thing will happen. But dont know bila masa ya tiba. Just mek terkejut lah sbb its still early for me and him to decide this kind of relationship. Then, xpalah. Mek trimak dgn redha. Tp mek still xpat move on lah nak. Hati mek yg terlukak before tok pun lom abis nya dah nambah parut agik. Aihhhh... I thought that he can heal my wound tp nya polah mek rasa takut and trauma mok ada relationship agik. Seriously. Mek nang xphm. Sampe kinek k kmk still sik jumpa jwpan. I dont think he break up with me becoz of the feelings tp sbb nya tkt yg kmk just take advantage of him to forget my ex. Sbb dolok nya pernah mention pasal love rebound pa benda ya. Maybe that's why kot nya gia. Tp whatever decision that he has made before... I'm sorry I cannot accept that kind of guy. He don't love me but just only like me. Ada sigek analogy tok kmk suka...

"If you like the flower, you will pluck it. But if you love that flower, you will water it daily and keep them fresh and beauty."

Kacak nak analogy tok? Simple to be understand. Kmk explain bg yg xberapa nak paham. Flower yg nya maksudkan is the girl. So means.. If you only like the girl, you just only pick and layan gia jak bila perlu and trash them away bila xperlu or xsuka gik. Sebaliknya, if you really love that girl, you will take care of her daily as you take care of yourself. You always make sure that she be safe in everywhere she go with who. You also will make her day happier and calm instead of giving her pressure. You always made her feel you beside her even though you far away or busy with your work. It is just a matter of love, time, honesty, loyalty and trust. I bet you if you can give this 5 things to your girl, believe me she wont leave you.. She will more appreciate you same goes with guys. This five things that should be cared in relationship if you want it last longer. If not, well you choose to be a flower that only being plucked then. But me, I want a guy that really appreciate me and accept who I am. Don't ever change me just accept my flaws. I know I'm so complicated girl. But trust me, if you give your time more to know me very well I won't let you disappoint with my attitude. I'm not the old Norazah which famous with 'playgirl' during high school. But I'm a new Norazah with full of love and passion with my life especially after all the heartbreak that I've been feel before. It's really enough for me. I want to appreciate my future guy for my future life. That's all. 

Haaaa... Sekali maok nya bespeaking k? Nama dah final year tok, english education mok mantap k tulis report bah. Haha. Ok. So, that's all that I can share to you my beloved blogger. Thanks for being there for me to express my feelings...

#pelangindah97

16.09.19

Assalamualaikum and hai blog!! 

It's me!! Azah here! Haha. Lamak dah sik bunyi nak? Bukan segal lamak sik bunyi. Tapi sik tauk mok cerita apa.. Haaaa mun pande muncul tok adalah cerita nya ya XD. LOLZER!!!

Okay.. Let's me start k? About my last relationship before tok. Kmk dah end up masa mek tgh intern riya. Sedih nak? Tgh suk2 intern, tetiba problem datang eh. Kecian ngga mek bah nak huhu. Tapi gine nak polah. Semua tok bukan kmk yg mintak. Apa yg berlaku tok semuanya ada hikmah and ketentuan-NYA. And mek cayak Allah sentiasa lindungi mek dari benda2 sik bagus bah. And kmk cayak juak perancangan Allah sikkan pernah salah. So, just chill and cool down (as if) hahaahaa XD.

Well, ktk org mesti mok tauk pahal mek break-up nak? Okay2 mek ceritalaaa tok. Sabar bah. Ceyyy. Macamlaa ada org mok baca blogger mek tok nak? Perasan kau zah! Tapi xpa, Atleast this kind of my diary eventhough kmk sik update hari2. Kmk akan update bila mek ada cerita jak nak. Yahhh. Okay2. Sambung al kisahnya bermula...

Masa ya kmk tgh intern. Like cerita mek before tok tek, mek rasa mcm single, rasa cm sikda gerek and whatsoeverlah! So, masa ya kmk rindu gilak dgn nya. Mek mok call nya, mok vc ngn nya, tapi nya berik mek alasan macam2. Sedangkan before tok sikda pulak nya pande mok berik mek alasan bah. Eran juak tek. But sikpalah. Kmk teruskan husnuzon bah tek. Hahaha (cm xikhlas bunyi tetak nak?) Then, suddenly one day... Tuhan mok berik mek petunjok persoalan kmk before tok. Haaaa.. Guess what? He still contact with that girl and nya nafikan benda ya masa kmk tyk nya riya. Like what?! Kmk tok sikda perasaan ka nak dipolah gia. And pande pulak nya salahkan kmk yg curang? Sedangkan nya dasyat gik contact mpuan ya siap save nama mpuan ya 'Syg' k? While kmk? Nya save nama 'Azah' jak k? Tedah bah ngga kmk eh!!!!! Kecian mek ngga ati kmk dipolah gia. So, from that day mek tauk nak, mek dah decide mek nak break tapi before ya mek sik puas ati bah. Hahahaa. Then mek siasat dolok. Tauk2 tek eh, lamak tok nya salu keluar ngn mpuan ya k? HUAHUAHUAHA!!! Sedih aaaaaaihhhhhh!!! Mek cam speechless k? But sikpalah. Benda dah jadi. Kmk sikpat mok manas ka mok nngis ka. Sikkan dpt ubah apa2. Mek ng knk bulak mati-matian lamak tok entam perasaan sayang kmk eh. Nampak kali jak LOVE IS BLIND EH!!!! Tapi lepastok mek maybe belaja to be more careful to love and trust people kot. Okaylaa juak ya nak. Daripada sikda oleh. Hahaha. So,that's it! Because of yalah mek break-up. Hati mek dah hancur lebur and dah sikpat ditolong agik. Hmmmmm...

Then? What's next? Now I'm having a new relationship with a new guy name Ismail Anuar. Hmm. Okaylah. Hensem laa. Good guy, gentlemen. Sweet (70%) bok laa. Sebab bok kenal tek. Pa gik oo? Nya loving, caring semua yalah. But sigek! Nya sangat cerewet k?! MyGOD!!!! Penin palak mek entam nya. Yalah before tok kmk dgn org laki biasa2 jak bukan luar biasa cm nya ya. Ney lah mek expect laki cm nya ya suka kmk bah nak? Taste nya mesti yg high maintenance pun mpuan bah. Kmk tok low k? Boleh jak jadi cmya. Tp mek sik suka. Cm rasa perfect gilak. Sedangkan mek tauk mek byk kekurangan bah k pa mek mok jd cmya. Bagus mek jadi dirik sendirik. Terpulang dekat nya laa nak mok terimak sik. But kmk cam sik yakin bah ngn nya tok. Serious talk. Sbb meksa nya sikkan tahan dgn perange kmk n apperance kmk. Nampak bah rupa nya gia. Haha. Saja mok try kenal nak? Al maklumlaa nya pdh nya crush mek lamak tok tek but bok kinek nya mok tego. Ok. So mek berik peluang walaupun actually mek masih fobia ngn kisah cinta mek before tok. But yeah I have to overcome it. Hahaha. Ok sambung. Mek rasa sik yakin eh. Cm sikpat mek mok berharap ngn nya tok. Cam mek rasa one day he will leave me too. Huhu. But ok laa mek berhati2 dari awal tok before mek kecewa agik kdk dolok nya. I think he should deserve the best girl in his life instead of me. Buat masa tok kmk just follow the flow jak eh. And anything happen biarlah Allah yg berik petunjok ngn kmk sbb kmk trust His plan. Kmk yakin ketentuan and takdir-Nya lebih baik n bagus dr perancangan manusia. Sbb kta di atas muka bumi tok hanya sementara jak. Yang kekal hanya cinta kepada Allah and jangan melebihi cinta manusia dari-NYA. Yalah Tuhan mudah mok tarit kebahagiaan yg kita rasa. Mek just hope yg semua kerja kmk dipermudahkan sbb kmk tgh FINAL YEAR kinek tok. In Sha Allah. Dugaan menimpa mek time final year tok juak ada masalah hati n perasaan. Sikpalah. Take it as challenge and be positive!

Okay.. Kepak dah mek naip tok. Mek chau lok laaa. That's all from me. And if ada apa2 mek mok cer2. Mek akan update blog k? ByE!! WISH ME GOODLUCK!!!!!

#pelangindah97

29.05.19

Assalamualaikum and hai there! Yeah.. yeahhh... Azah back from unimas setelah sekian lama betapa and stress selamak tok. Perhhh! But yeaaa no chill gilak becoz ada byk gik komitmen yg kmk knk polah lepas tok. Especially industrial training. Fuh! Neves tahap gamban siak! Xpa2. Try to make it chill k? 

Alright..Hmmm.. Mok cerita apa ooo? Feeling? I'm feel well but not my heart. Hmm. Why? Entahlah. Rasa kosong maybe? But not becoz kmk sik solat or lupak pd Tuhan. Kmk sentiasa ingat Tuhan walaupun mek sedar mek salu polah dosa hmmm.. Maksud mek rasa kosong ya, xda org carik kmk. Rasa single ada juak. Better jadi single jak cmtok. Huh! Maybe mek gitok sbb mek xda keja kot mok polah cm mek sik busy bah nak. Lepas tok sik laa kali mek lalek dgn benda ya. Sbb mek busy abis pastok. Dah ada event gik hujong taun tok. Kakngah mok nikah. Pening palak dedek eh.. Eeee.. Hahaahaaa. Muntah ijo bis bunyi ya. Tapi yalah kenyataan. Best nya ngga kakak2 mek bahagia. Kmk pun tumpang gembira. Jadilah nak. Ingat senang ka mok bahagiakan seseorang? If someone ya xpaham kta, xtauk apa yg kta suka or sik, xtauk cmne mok control emosi kta especially mpuan, susah tauk sik mok rasa bahagia ya. And, money cannot buy happiness, love and honesty. Semua ya dalam dirik sendirik ok? But yalah, still juak org mok paham nak. Kali lom matured? Or kurang social environment? Entah kot. Haiyyy apalah dipke mek benda tok jak2. Mcm xda benda lain mok pike nak. Terok2. Bah. Yajaklaa setakat tok. Mls mok panjang2. Sama jak cerita ya. Klah. Bye. Adios!

#pelangindah97

12.05.19

Hye guys.. I'm back haha after a long time xupdate blog nak. Well, if ada masa, kmk akan update. If xda, paham2 laa.. 

Okay.. Mcm biasa it's about my feelings. Hmm. Selamak tok mek pendam tanpa ada kata2. Bukan sengaja mok pendam. Tp xda org mok dishare. Actually ada. But meksa nya xpatut dgr kisah kmk becoz I know he has feeling with me. So, mcm xsesuai jak mek mok share nak. Paling2 pun nya akan makan ati jak kelak. Mek xmok gia. Mek mok bila mek share n mek dah luah, kmk pun rasa ilang semua ya bkn makin yakit palak. Jadi, mek prefer utk terus diam n pendam jak biarpun sakit. Tp better mcm ya drpd kmk yg makin parah nak. 

Dah nak masok 5 taun, mek still lom dpt jwpan dr dolok. Maybe msh awal or lambat kelak bok mek tauk jwpan ya. Mek xharap apa2 jwpn ya kelak. Kmk cayak dgn ketentuan-Nya n ya adalah yg terbaik yg Nya berik kat kmk. So, I believe in Allah's plan. Gine2 pun keredaan-Nya penting utk teruskan hidup. Sbb Tuhan memang dah lamak tetapkan semua ya sejak kita 40 hari dlm perut ibu. So, iboh mempersoalkan knk nya temukan n pisahkan kta dgn seseorang ya sbb semua ya ada hikmah n sbbnya dikpun. Maybe utk ajar kta supaya tauk erti menghargai n mengasihi. Tauk betapa pentingnya kejujuran n kepercayaan dalam hubungan. Apa yg berlaku before tok, kmk xpernah yesal or rasa salah sbb mek tauk semua ya ada hikmah. Walaupun mek tauk ya salah nya, tp nya ada sbb nya pun knk nya plh gia. Just kta yg perlu pande memilih n menilai seseorang ya. 

Ell.. Bagi kmk nya laki yg perfect dlm life kmk sbb nya ng jaga mek mcm nya jaga nyawa nya sendirik. Tp semua ya dr segi mata kasar n apa yg kmk nampak. Kmk xtauk disebalik ya. But, I'm just think positive about him. If Tuhan pernah tunjok mek before tok, xda mustahil satu hari nya akan tunjok kat kmk gik sampelaa kmk jumpa jwpan apa mek mintak selamak tok. Kenangan2 mek ng nya yg berat gilak kmk mok lepaskan sbb semua yg kmk rasa ya first time in my life. Tp yalah benda yg pertama kali xsemestinya akan diakhiri nak? Bagi kmk nya dolok cinta terakhir kmk sampe kawen. Tp lepas apa yg berlaku n selamak tok mek pendam apa mek rasa ya, kmk xyakin nya boleh jadi cinta terakhir kmk. Kali kmk xdpt bersama dgn cinta pertama n cinta terakhir kmk. Duak2 kmk ilang gia jak. Maybe means lepas tok cinta sejati yg kmk carik. But who? Ya msh kmk tertanyak2. 

Zikri.. He is very nice guy dr zaman sekolah dolok. Eventhough nya ex, but nya still profesional mok kwn n layan kmk. Nya xberubah selamak 5 taun yg dolok. He still loyal guy. He still jd laki yg knk tinggal mpuan. LOL XD. Part ya sedih abislaa mek dgr. Tp yalah. Ingat jak apa yg berlaku bait bagus or jaik semua ya ada hikmah n sbb. So, just chill n think positive to Him. He knows everything. Kmk xberani mok harap apa2 dgn nya coz mek tkt gik mok syg org laki dgn terlalu dlm. Tkt rasa sakit ya berulang agik. So, mek prefer just syg gia2 jak. Not too deep n serious. Biar Nya yg tentukan. Mek harap if bukan kmk jodohnya, nya jumpa mpuan yg benar2 appeciate nya gilak2. One day. Yes. Same goes to Ell. They deserve utk dpt mpuan yg sempurna becoz bg kmk sidak ng sempurna. Typical husband type. Hahaha. But not me. I'm not typical wife haha. Masak pun xpande nak. Xpa. Benda ya slow2 boleh belajar nak. So, chill laa. Umo msh mudak kan. I have 10 years from now to search for that answer. And I'm confidently one day I will find that answer. I just have to be patience and finish my study, get job n if ada rezeki, melancong dolok. Hehehe. My dream. If sampelaa. In Sha Allah. 

Okay.. That's all from me. 

#pelangindah97

17.02.2019

Assalamualaikum,

Hai blogger!!! Setelah sekian lamak kmk xupdate apa2 nak? Hahaha.. Busy bena kmk before tok dengan keja semua. Biasalah future engineer kan. Amin. In Sha Allah. If diizinkan and ada rezeki. Khabar? Sihat alhamdulillah. Oklah juak. Cuma yalah. Rasa sunyik sikitlaa. Memanglaa ada gerek. Tp yalah still with gerek yg sama. Xda yg berubah. Nothing change with the same person right? Ginelaa gaya. Masa tok kmk xpat mok polah apa2. Kmk gik belajar. Gik sama kelas, sama unimas, sama group, banyaklaa benda yg sama. Hmmm. Yalahtek. Kmk perlu bersabar sampe masanya akan tiba. And at the time kmk suddenly terjumpa balit account ex mek hahaha!! You know what? Nya nektok main twitter doe! Lol XD lawak abis. Patutlaa kmk carik kat instagram xda, facebook xda. Duhal tek rah twitter nya betapok. Tapi yalahtek, nya actually ng betapok lam twitter ka or nya sebenanya mok kmk jumpa nya rah twitter? Mcm dolok nya mlh instagram. Tetiba jak. Pelik bah. Ka aku tok jak yg overthinking? Cm nya main twitter ya saja2 jak bah. Bukan segal mok kmk tauk pun sebenanya. Hmmm. Entahlaa. But kmk xmok identiti kmk ditauk. So, nasib juak mek pake nama lain. Hahaha. So if kmk stalk nya pun xlaa nya tauk nak. Ujung2 sine gik nya nak betapok? Myspace? Lol. Buat masa nektok mek xmok ngaco nya. But meksa mek ng xmok ngaco nya gik pun. Cm pelik jak rasa. Berik harapan pun ada. Kmk bukan malu tp yalah xmok kecewakan org bah. Xpa. Nya bukan tauk kmk ada twitter pun nak? N if nya coba nak search pun bukan nya tauk nama kmk. Right? Yeah. So biar kmk jak yg tauk. Hehehe. Btw, alhamdulillah mek tauk keadaan ktk sihat. Bersyukur mek. Klah. That's all. Bye!